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[Jun. 8th, 2008|11:48 pm] |
| [ | how i'm feeling right about now |
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| [ | sounds |
| | Grizzly Bear - Farewell/Goodbye | ] |
This summer is starting off very odd, though not bad at all.
Chris consumes my time and I like it.
My car was in the shop for two weeks and $1694 later (that I don't have as of right now..) I got it back.
I am so confused right now. I just spent three days and two nights straight with Chris and I feel like an appendage has been taken away. So strange. I keep curling the fingers on the hand that isn't there.
Last time I tried to type something on here I got wholly distracted by icon communities featuring LOST icons. I fucking love that show.
Watching a lot of stuff recently. Lots of movies, tv shows, stand-up. We are so broke.
Hardly going to Tut.
(Alice! I was there that night I said I'd be! I'm still really sorry there was any miscommunication! Next time I go.. I PROMISE I will text you.)
Oh oh oh oh. I don't know what else to say. I need to sign up for SCC. I need to figure lots of things out but knowing me.. I will just get caught up in the now and continue to put it off.
Job market sucks right now, so if the few of you out there are looking for a job, try harder. Try Craigslist.. try everything.
I need to sleep I guess. So weird to be alone. I think I need a good old-fashioned get high in front of the tv moment... but I don't know if I really want that. I just want to fall asleep and wake up to my lover. |
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| What goes up must go down. |
[Apr. 1st, 2008|02:46 pm] |
| [ | how i'm feeling right about now |
| |  productive | ] |
And the truth is.. we like the mania. |
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[Mar. 5th, 2008|11:21 pm] |
| [ | how i'm feeling right about now |
| |  high | ] |
| [ | sounds |
| | the beatles | ] |
I have taken to my moleskine this past week, apparently. One day I'd like to consolidate all my written entries with all my internet entries. Just to read, like any other book. Just needs a lot of work. A lot a lot.
Mexico was grand. I liked sitting out at night reading, feeling the humidity and hearing the town go on it's merry way. Something so settling about that music.
I want something to do tonight. However it is nearly half past-twelve.. and I doubt there will be much opportunity.
Na, nana, na, nana nanana!
I'm going crazy so understimulated. |
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| I have sneezed around 30 times today. No joke. Actual estimate. |
[Feb. 25th, 2008|12:08 am] |
| [ | how i'm feeling right about now |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | sounds |
| | a fine frenzy | ] |
Sometimes I just have to listen to my gut and tell myself; You don't have to sleep with this person. You won't get anything out of it, you aren't attracted to him--and even if it is nice that his hand it grazing your back, it means nothing to you.
Sometimes I make the right decision.
I did tonight, and I'm glad.
Fuck everything I have done to myself.
I listened to the music tonight and saw the other character in my love story being a mystery for now. I still have my memories. But there are some people I enjoy things of the inimate nature with, and there are still those men who I am infatuated with or those I say I'd most certainly procreate with some day. Some day? Some day.
I finished "Galapagos" by Kurt Vonnegut. Tres bien.
Going to start "Thank You For Smoking" thanks to B-Ash, soon.
Also--got my license back. Had a pretty boring weekend out thuuur in Tempe. Watched a lot of Scrubs and It's Always Sunny in Philidelphia, though, and that is always v. v. v. entertaining, really!
I've been off my Zoloft for a month now. It is sadly very clear that I act out my anxiety by being very OCD. It's so fucking irritating. Caffeine only encourages these behaivors and so my cravings for coffee are endless.
I can't trust anyone when I am working. I mean, I can..some. Just I am NOT warming up to this girl who is working with us now. She worked for Shogun for five years in the past, before an apparently slippery slope from which now she is recovered. Yet.. there is this vibe. And do NOT go near my fucking cash register. I am responsible for that money and this company is no stranger to theivery!
We'll see.
At the cleaning party this morning, I found dinosaur stickers. Infact, stickers of dinosaurs grilling hamburgers. It is the happiest thing ever to be added to my servers book.
I wish I could flow, like a rapper, or perhaps a bubbling creek.
Sad sappy sucker, I am.
Wish I had more ativan. I was listening to everything on my zune on shuffle and this Minus the Bear song has the lyric, "don't say no to popping pills; ativan doesn't kill". How fucking awesome is that? No? Ok. Whateeeev.
And ALICED! If you read this, sorry I didn't see you today! Your birthday is soon though, and if I forget, happy birthday!!! |
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